such a good picture

this is a god picture,

someone didnt believe I was in this place!!!!!!

anyway...

happy new year to everyone...

life is so good............

well, life is good now...I can spend time doing things I couldnt do during my studies, ...although it feels kind of wierd to wake up and no study at all ... to wake up so late and with a good sleep ..damm god this is so great.....
anyway I m relaxed, and just waiting for my score, maybe wont be a high score, but passing is a good thing..so at least I hope to pass...all is in god's hands. .
so X-mass is almost now, so I just want to wish a merry x-mass for everyone who followed my blog ( even though maybe they are not too many ) but I really apreciate your time reading these lines ..and also when I logged in and read some comments I felt that I m not alone in this pathway and I have some people who is supporting me always and trust in me... I ll not dissapoint you , and all the effort I m doing is for you also...
thanks a lot I Really apreciate it....
Today was a nostalgic day, I was remembering that one year ago I was finishing my internship , and also medical school, so many questions in my head ..so many doubts, so many things mixed up in my brain,...it was such a good time but finished and I didnt notice it was so soon...but I have so good memmories about it...
merry x-mass to everone ....and have a happy new year...and please ENJOY your time..lofe is so short...we dont realise it...
god bless you....

game over

well guys I took the test yesterday, at the beggining was kind of strange feeling, since I didnt know how to face the test, everyone says its a hard test, and very long ...and it really is.. but I got some long questions, some easy, and some harder lol
anyway I arrived to the center really early about 7.30 morning, and prayed to god a little bit ( that is the most important thing to do ) , and got into the screen with my test in front of me...the first coupple of questions were really hard ..I almost freaked out, but then I took a deep breath and calmed down..and continued...when I noticed I had done 3 blocks without any rest..so I took my first break about 10 mins. after that came back and some more qts,,,two more blocks and lunch time....then one block and 10 mins break and finally the last block, so at the end I had like 10 mins break but I was done with my test...So I hope they keep that time for my step 2 ck lol
about the blocks they were really well distributed, but the last ones were really wierd, they asked lots of qts about molecular biology, genetics,...
I got a lot of pictures, microscopic, stool tests, brain, MRI, angiograms, lots of pics....so my advice is you study but dont freack out if u keep forgeting so much stuff ( that was my case) because this test is hard but doable, and please do the USMLE sample material and nmbe forms, I got like 2 qts from cd, and some similar to NMBE forms...
my test was lots of pathology , pharm, micro,,,fourtunatly only coupple of anatomy which is my weak ..too much memory and I hate doing it because I forgot it one week after I learnt....
I would say this is a test, to measure how you can integrate all basic sciences with medicine... and I wish I can get a good score...now I have to take a break and then start study for step 2..
the first lever of the game is over ( unless I fail )
anyway guys please dont freack out and also dont get scared when you find questios that are so hard ......this test is hard but doable...just keep studying...and good luck to everyone...please pray for my score....now I need some time off...and then return reloaded for step 2ck
see you then

so tomorrow is the day

well tomorrow is the great day ...my test ...finally my usmle step 1, so please keep me in your prayers ,, I hope god help me ..I dont know what to write so I was looking at my pc and found this sweet pic, ..good friends...a long time ago...................see you and my next message will be after the test.bye

finally,...I ll do it

hey guys .,,,after a long time for meditation , I realised I cant give up without trying it, so I decided to take this damm test next friday ( dec 15th ) so that is the day ,,and the game will be over soon..
so I need your prayers again , pleaseeee
lets see what happens..........................
"let your dreams become true"

what a problem!

today I fell good, dont know why yet, but I ll have to find out. these days I spent time thinking about my future, my life, and about all these thoughts I have in my head the ones that keep me dreaming.....
I heard this saying " the higher you fly, the tuffer the hit is when u fall " and it describes what my life has been these time, dreaming and dreaming , but didnt know how unreachable it was..
but somedays I remember and keep thinking about it, dont know why I still have this idea inside my head , and there is one voice inside me who is always asking " are u gona give up? , so is that the end? so are u letting your dream going away that easy? are you sure u ll live always knowing that u never gave it a try? "
so I have been thinking about it, I always wanted to take these usmle boards, now I m not sure about my future, but I m not sure if I can live without at least trying it, but anyway,,,
I just want to think about it carefully.....
thanks to all my friends who support me

this girl is so pretty, but reminds me a very good friend of mine.. TU LO SABES o no?????????
TE DESEO LO MEJOR AMIA

I m so weak

hey guys I m not sure how many people read this forum, maybe only a few, but I just wanted to tell you ,that today I feel so weak, and freacked out, so I change my plans, and I m not taking this test anymore. I guess I m not that smart as I used to think I was, but I want to thank to everyone who trusted in me, I dont want to dissapoint them, but I m so weak and dumb that I m not able to pass that test, ..anyway ...life goes on..so maybe I ll stay in my country..but I ll let you know about my future when I have a better view...
thanks to everyone...
bye

one more pic

this is such a good pic, having fun with my friends at some city north in peru, we are not drunk, but happy...I miss you friends..so much...

and pleaseee..

pray for me

thanks youuuuuu

two weeks to go!!!!!!!!!!

Hello, well it has been such a while since last post, but I was very busy with my last review, I feel taht I dont have that much time to study, but also to study all day is too much study, but anyway I m here writting in my blog...thanks to my friends who posted a comment, and to the ones that only read it,
well I feel like I ll never finish reading all the stuff I have to , and I ll never learn as much as needed to be very confident so I hope not to re schedule this test, since I want to take it ASAP.
well these days were very tuff days I havemy brothers `s birthdays, so a lot of time without studying, ...
I feel very weak at nights, and also tired, and bored about reading the same stuff which I forget teh following day, but anyway I need to do it. I feel like I left my friends, my family and all I had for this test, I feel this test changed my lifestyle, even though I still play soccer, my life is kind of boring now, only studying and sleeping.
Thanks to you,,i m not sure how many people read this blog, but I can tell you that this is a really bad situation, but hopefully 2 weeks more and then I ll take a rest, and some time off...
I hope you pray for me, I need it..please do it guys.....
thanks a lot...
and please.....pray for me twice...
let my dream become true.

from my old gallery

I just got this pic ,,,,It was 2005 during my ob/gyn internship rotation...the best team.
the death team....and i was eating some chicken...

6 weeks to go

well finally the day is december 5th, I hope you all can pray for me please .,I ll really need those form my soul..... so today on I ll need or prays, sayings, comments ,and positive energies...
well since today I started my final review,,,with First Aid being my main resource, and doings about 100 qts a day, and please guys , I really need your support.
My future is becoming clear now, the pathway used to be so dark and endless now is clear as a sunny day in lima ( my hometown) .
this week I m playing soccer, because my neck muscles started to becom so stiff and hurt a lot,,, So I m relaxing and studying, thanks to my dudes I can stay calm down, with their words and comments....
well an old friend told me ...."the greater your dream is, the further u ll get"
this is my dream , and I ll try to make it,,and If I make it , I swear god I 'd do my best in U.S
ok ..thanks for your suport...and take care...
kendra.,,,,thanks a lot.,,,
musq ...._u also rock....
walter,,, u are my best friend...and we ll make it.

It was my friend marco`s birthday, and we went out and have fun...do u notice we are having fun, dont you?

there is someone missing there..

My First message in my own blog

This is how I start my journey to american medical system, now I' m doctor from peru and just decided to go through this dark and long pathway, after a long time of deep meditation I took this decision, is it right or wrong time will tell. I just graduated from medical school last march, it was such a good day but also a day of uncertainty about future, I was so happy and also scared, things are different since I finished med school, I have no more night calls, no more tons of tests going on, no more early morning wake-ups, and no-weekend-free. ...all of that is gone now, but I m a doctor now with so much responsability about life.....and with a future comming so fast that I have to decide what to do. At the beggining I was thinking about staying at home and doing my residency here in my country , but after some time I realised that is a mistake for myself, why to be so shy? so coward ? why not give it a try? is usmle a mounster? is USA an impossible trip for a developing-country doctor? is that hard? is that impossible? or is it only a mith?

Today I feel more confident about myself and this USMLE step1, which has made me remember all my basic sciences , the ones I learnt in my medical school "Universidad Peruana Cayetano Heredia", In Peru, the best one in my country, I owe so much to this institution, which gave me not only a good teaching but also a different view of medicine. I had so many good doctors teaching me and some good friends also, which I always remember, ....thanks cayetano...

Now , thanks to god I ll start this pathway, my family supports me, my friends are sure I can do it, so I m starting this long and hard journey to the american dream....