michigan agaiin?????

Finally I m here againg in Michigan, where I started to dream about 'the american dream
'... I remember when I arrived for 1st time to MI ..it was january 2004, some snow said " welcome to america" I had never seen that much snow in my life before...It was my first day when I went to a hospital for an elective rotation at the internal medicine dpt...and it was about 4 o clock in the morning ,and I woke up..took a shower..walked about a mile to get to the bus stop..at 5 o clock in te morning..it was dark outside..with the snow covering all the sidewalk..my shoes were stucked in the snow..finally I got the bus stop..so freezing..so worried about it..but when I got on the bus I realised it was not an easy pathway..I was wondering ..is this what I want..? is this worth? should I come to america...? ..too many questions..and few answers..but anyway...I arrived to the hospital..met really nice doctors there...and compared the differences between medicine there and in my country....and when I was in the hospital..I realised ,,,I wanted to do it...
not its april 2007..;; I m older..I m not that young guy that used to have energy 24/7, roght now ..watching trought the windows of a nice cancer center in MI.. I see all the snow covering the buildings...how depressant it is..but I feel..those things I felt 3 years ago.that weird sensationg inside my body..just running troughout...like when I first arrived here..but now ...I m older..and also ...in the middle of my american dream...
if this is a good decision or not..only gods know..but somebody told me a coupple of days ago..that ..AMerica loves me...but to be honest...I d like God loving me.....and if he wanted me to change my test from LA to chicago..and make a stop here in michigan.. .there should be a reason for it...maybe to regain some confindence...or maybe meet some old friends...or maybe to freeze my body before a test and calm down my nerves.....I still dont know why ...but I m really sure there is a reason for my stay here..and when I know it..I ll share it with you...
so I hope you dont get bored with this dork story ..but I was in the mood of writting this thing..
please keep me in your prayers..test day is april 20th.
take care folks.e