one week later....

well guys I applied last week, to my programs for the IM match, and so far I have already 4 interview invtitations which is really cool, but I also feel that I need some more to stay in the safe area...maybe around 15 is a good number :).
but let's see what destiny will bring later on this month..... I hope god gives me some more help AGAIN!!!! actualy he has already done a lot for me , and I guess I owe him my entire soul,....

I havent been able to start my step3 preparation yet, because I cant focus on real study due to the match process , I keep opening my email inbox every 30 mins but I MUST start serious study this week, and hopefully take my step 3 mid november.... I m so lonely , no study partner , so boring , no suppor for this step,,,but I hope I can pass it too...

well finally I ll be travelling to the USA in november, and this time I have no partner to travel with so far, so I guess I ll feel so lonely during all this trips, interviews, and also in the middle of the winter....but that is one more sacrifice I have to make, although I ve already asked someone to join me..let's see if she is free for me ...or she has already some other plans.... ( I need you to iron my suites , not wrincked this time, lol) .......

I also applied for spanish residency test, and will have to travel to spain in january....but I have some of my friends there , so I ll feel like being at home.... I couldnt just leave all my luck to the USMLE match, since its very competitive, that is why I had to apply for my backup plan, spanish medical residency,...and hopefully I ll start residency next year,.,I cant wait to start and practice medicine......

these days I ve been thinking deeply about my future, and my personal life;..and Ive been just remembering some talk I had in the past, some phrases I said, and someone told me too, and also so promises I made in the past.... but I ll make all those things to become true, I dont know what destiny has for me in the future, but I ll fight for the american dream, not only for you..but for me... I guess after the last time I saw you, we were expecting for this trip, but it seems things have changed , so have ur feelings.....and I d understand.... and wouldnt blame at you....distance and time are always harmfull for feelings...and it seems you are not expecting this trip anymore......but just wanted to let you know,,,I'm happy for you...and I guess now I m happy for me, because you always encoraged me to keep trying this USMLE dream, and although I d like you to be with me until the match and later also(.as we dreamed in the past), but I m also mature enough to undertand things...and if I match I ll always rember that you always encouraged me..and made me try harder!!!!!
thank you dude...and at least get online more often to say hi! and keep me updated about your life..because I feel that I dont know any news from you, and also I can help you whenever u need me,,,, never forget that .....

well guys thanks for your support and I guess I m in the beginning of the end, and hopefully I can sucess and match this year,,
tk guys,,,
see you soon

Sri Tigerji

I dont dance " cumbia songs"

when I asked this lady to dance, she repplied " I dont dance "cumbia", but look at her, arent we having fun with "cumbia"?

fun weekend

well guys after my test score I had to go for some fun, I enjoyed the weekend, this a pic that show some of it. do I look happy???? or hot?????, what about her??? lol

RE-loaded

well guys finally, I got my step 2 score, it's a pretty good one, and also I got 2 more letters of recommendation for my application, and it made me think about this year match, so I m still going for it, I applied to some hosp and still waiting to apply for some more, life is good now,
I'm so happy and now studying hard for step 3 , maybe destiny still wants me to go to america, and let the american dream become true, let's see what happens later,.....
and I want to thank a special friend that helped me a lot these last days, someone I just met for a coupple of weeks, but had already done so much for me, and was also with me during this time, you know I m talking about you dude, thanks a lot, and I still owe you dinner, and you owe me the buffet, so we ll meet soon, maybe in the US, or in PERU..... and please study hard, you are so damm smart and helped me a lot, so I guess you deserve some words in my blog too..
take care.
:)
thanks everyone....even if I dont write too often I feel I have some support always from people who read this blog...thanks for your prayers ...
love you guys

TImes are changing!

These last days were very important in my life, I had to take some decisions which I do not regret since I Was prepared for some consequences about them, I cant blame myself since it was the best....
LIfe has been really hard for me, first my USMLE application is not ready, I applied to only one program and have very low chances to match this year, and still a lot of work to do to see if there is any other program that I may apply to, but time is almost up, so I may be ending applying to only one program and almost impossible to match this year, I cant blame at anyone, everything is my responsibility, but sometimes we need some help, and suddenly we realise that the person who we thought was helping us no matter what, this person just doesnt help us, and then we are left alone, and that hurts more, but anyway that is about life, maybe I shouldnt have never counted on that person..cant blame that person either ..but anyway there is also a backup plan and life goes on.... but I believe god will judge everyone of us for our acts....and also this world is round, and somethings may turn around so fast.....

Love is a constellation of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection or profound oneness, but sometimes we just dont understand what the other person mean by love, and when we realise that we dont play the same game, we get so disappointed about it, tha we didnt see things that were so clear , but luckily there is always good people that make us see those things we couldnt see, and realise that love had made us blind... but its never too late to change things, and also it is never too late to realise that the game is over....although it hurts to know that I almost left everything, that I trusted in love again after a long time , but again got hurt a lot...but ..that is about life, .... I hope next time I dont make the same mistake and I wont be a fool again, I dont think I wasted time, because I felt good, and also was decided to do some crazy thngs thag luckily I didnt do yet,... otherwise I d have regreted that for my entire life. I m young and strong enough to restart my life, and I m pretty sure this new life for me is gonna be better, and now time for me to be " THe selfish One". I dont regret for anything I did, because I was always transparent enough, and never cheated, and I did have real feelings without any secondary gain,... but now the game is over... maybe in the worst moment of my life, when I really needed someone to be with me, helping me , since I have a long way for medical residency...but yeah....that only confirm that it wasnt love....sometimes we say LOVE without even meaning it....but the problem is that not everyone plays that game...

anyway, I should start again, get stronger, and now I can see who I can really count on..and just try not to dissapoint those people, since they are the ones who are not only in god times, but also in the worse moments too..... I may also put more money and effort for the spanish dream, since it seems there is no more reason for me to go to america, and also because I have very few possibilities, it was a pleasure to write for you guys my american dream, but now I have to study hard, test in spain is next jan and I should get a spot there..

thanks for your prayers, and now lets work on the spanish dream :)

see you guys!

Gambling time

HEllo guys Its me again, well finally the match season started, last weekend I Was trying to decide whether I should apply with my bad credentilas or to wait until ck score and some more letters of recommendation, and after a good analisis I realised that my best choice is to apply , so I did apply to only one program in Illinois, the only one I met the requirements, although I have a list of 6 more programs that I d meet requirements depending on my ck score , so for now I m hands tied, and I only pray that this program I applied to , like me and offer me an interview. I also realisded I really need a back up, so finally I m done with all my paperwork for spain medical residency, so I ll be applying next january there.
This is a very important moment for my future plans so I hope god helps me a lot to get a spot in a good place...
Thanks for your prayers too guys I really need them
Good luck.

finally I took the test

hello guys I took my CK some days ago, it was a really bad experience,, I couldnt sleep the night before my test, so I got only 2 2-hour sleep the night before( = 4 hours)
so the day of my test I arrived early, and lucky I was the only one taking a test that day so no noise at all, but unfoutunately the earth was still shaking( after the severe earthwake in peru) , so I got my screen shaking maybe 3 times during my whole test ..
anywa by the end of the second block I was totally tired I coudlnt do it anymore, I couldnt concentrate anymore so basically I picked random answers :( ...by the end of the day I just wanted to sleep , I was so tired and I didnt even remember how I performed during the test since I barely had energies for my brain..
so now I just pray to god for my score, and I hope he helps one more time...
my score will arrive in some weeks and I ll post my score when it arrives
thanks for your prayers..
tk