last minute plan changes!

well guys I had to change my trip to the USA for some personal reasons, so now I ll be travelling later this month and also I ll have to re-schedule my step3 test. It's been a while since last time I wrote here, but I was very busy, and also studying hard, but it seems destiny had something prepared for me before my trip. but I spent last days thinking deep about everything happened last months in my life, and I just realised did lots of things wrong, and only a few ones right, but I'm still on time to change those things and go for my goals...
now I'm changing all my plans, and its been very tuff but I m working on it too. about step3 I keep studying but it seems to be a hard test, so I have to work harder, anyway good news is that I have more interviews, and also an interview in the spain embasy next week, which I was lucky to get, so maybe I d end up in spain with my friends :),
my future is less clear now, but I will just let god to pick the best decision for me.
well it seems this X-mass will gonna be the worse in my life, since I wont spend it with my family, and it makes me feel lonely even though its not the time yet,......
well guys I just need your prayers for me, now more than ever, and hopefully I ll have good news for you soon.,
last weekend a good friend told me :
"maybe she never loved you, maybe you were only a back-up, maybe you should have run away as usual, maybe you should have always continued your life and do not listen to her tears, ,maybe you should have picked any of the several other choices you had, maybe you just didnt realise that it was a game, and not a fair one, maybe your mistake was not playing the same game with the same rules,,maybe you should just get the time machine and try to change the past, but unfourtunately you cant do it,,but "maybe" is a word for loosers as is indecision and games, and you are a succesfull guy with such a strong personality and lots of goals to reach."
another freind told me : " Do not do what you did for me, please fight for her and remind her good times and show you sensitive area which u have and its very awesome....please dont let her go, or you will regret later....tell her eerything you have been thinking lately, and all this please fight as you fight for your profesional goals..........." the big question is..should I?

PS. Last days I understood why God gave me so many good things in my life last years, and also why I passed all my steps, without even desrving them, it was because there is always lot of people praying for me, and that is why god listen to them ( not me because I'm an asshole) and I need to thank those people.....

tc guys, life goes on.......

Sri Tigerji.