interviews!!

well guys, I m in the middle of my interviews, this is such a long pathway but I have to go for it,,,,and its also the end of my american dream,..
well I performed very well in the small community prorgams, but I screwed up in the big programs, so at this point I dont know where I m going to end up, but I would like to match to abig program , although I not sure what is going to happen.
so guys I know I ve been asking you to pray a lot for me lately, and I feel like I m being so selfish but I just want this to be over, ...this american dream is killing me, and I have passed through a lot of things that I never thought I d go through.
I m thousands miles away from my country, my family, my friends, and after this time in the USA I wonder if I should stay here, or just quit this thing and go back to peru and do my training there, that is a question as I ask myself everyday before going to bed, and I dont have an aswer yet, but I guess at this point I dont have too many things to fight for here in the USA, and I have plenty of things in my country or even in spain where my best friends are living.
I feel so depresed , Xmass is in 4 more days and I ll be far away from my family, and have nothing here, so this Xmass I ll open a bottle of wine and get drunk, and try to forget about last months of this year which have been like hell, and I wonder what I did to deserve this...
anyway, I still talk to a coupple of friends from my country and everytime I talk to them , I come to the conclusion that I do not belong to the USA and my place is back in peru, and even after each interview I feel like I should go back, but to be honest I dont know what to do because I am really weak and confused at this point. I just want this to be over and go back to my country,,,the other day someone asked me if I could go back, should I still start this USMLE dream again, and my answer was clear, NO way... because the scenario was different by then, and now its totally different....but lets see what happens,
all I ask from you guys , is to talk to gad and ask him to help me please. I need it.....
thank you guys
and if I cant write again...just want to wish you merry xmass and happy new years
god bless you......

please pray for me

well guys I took my step3 last week, in the middle of the interview season, and that is something I regret about, but I couldnt get a different date so that is all I could do..
I regret I reschedule it because I was really tired, and after my test I had to go straight to the airport to travel, and that week I only slept for about 4 hours a day, it sucks..
and about the test , I was running out of time in every block... and I left about 80-90 questions that I couldnt read at all but at least marked them ramdomly, so I have left all on gods' hands. I hope we can help me,
in my second day , I was running out of time again, but as soon as I started my CCS , I had plenty of time and my cases ended suddenly after 10 mins , and that freaks me out.,.
so basically ,,,I screwed up my test, and I would not be surprised if I fail , but I would be surprised if I pass, and that would be due to one reason only, God listening to yours and my prays..
so please pray for me a lot..
tc guys....

The last chapter

Hello guys I just arrived to the states and tomorrow is my very first interview here, after a long pathway, finally I m feeling everything is about to end soon, and it makes me freak out, but in the other hand I m happy its gonna be done soon, so I hope I have good news after all my interviews.
the wheater here sucks, I m in philly right now and its raining a lot ...also very cold..it sucks

well guys I just want to ask you to pray for me...I need it a lot these days, since I m very nervous about interviews and all these process, you guys helped me up to this stage so now I'm just asking for some more help..which I really need.

thank you everyone.................and please pray for me....
I ll write later
Sri Tigerji

time to depart!

Well guys this is my last weekend here in peru, next weekend I ll be in the USA starting the last part of my "american dream" that is the interview process. It's been a while since I started this blog and I feel that the end is around the corner....... still dont know what the final result will be, but I just want this to be over. I m also studying hard for my step3 which seems to be harder than what I thought, but I cant do anything but study hard, I feel like I should reschedule it, but I dont think I ll have time to reschedule it, so I guess I ll go for it and take it on december.

this week was a weird one, I had my Iv at the spanish embasyy for my residency test in january and the guy told me to come back next month, and I told him I was going to be in the US and he told me to decide between the USA or SPAIN, at that time I made my decision right away...the USA.... I feel that I have already worked a lot for it to give up....

Life is doing fine lately, little busy with studies and interview plans, since I have to book hotels and flights again, it sucks but I have to do it.. I hope god has something special for me after all this effort......

I ll spend Xmass alone in the USA and that idea makes me really sad, but I guess I ll go and buy a 12" turkey sub , with some wine and say merry xmass to myself..lol..it ll be so depressing but I ll have to get used to it.... but if I get a spot before Xmass ..I ll definetely get DRUNK lol.....

well guys thanks for reading this blog, and I hope you forgive me for all my misspellings but my english sucks big time... :) and please do pray for me... I need you for this late stage..... I need to perform well in my interviews and also on my step3.......

take care guys,
sincerly,
Sri Tigerji.

last minute plan changes!

well guys I had to change my trip to the USA for some personal reasons, so now I ll be travelling later this month and also I ll have to re-schedule my step3 test. It's been a while since last time I wrote here, but I was very busy, and also studying hard, but it seems destiny had something prepared for me before my trip. but I spent last days thinking deep about everything happened last months in my life, and I just realised did lots of things wrong, and only a few ones right, but I'm still on time to change those things and go for my goals...
now I'm changing all my plans, and its been very tuff but I m working on it too. about step3 I keep studying but it seems to be a hard test, so I have to work harder, anyway good news is that I have more interviews, and also an interview in the spain embasy next week, which I was lucky to get, so maybe I d end up in spain with my friends :),
my future is less clear now, but I will just let god to pick the best decision for me.
well it seems this X-mass will gonna be the worse in my life, since I wont spend it with my family, and it makes me feel lonely even though its not the time yet,......
well guys I just need your prayers for me, now more than ever, and hopefully I ll have good news for you soon.,
last weekend a good friend told me :
"maybe she never loved you, maybe you were only a back-up, maybe you should have run away as usual, maybe you should have always continued your life and do not listen to her tears, ,maybe you should have picked any of the several other choices you had, maybe you just didnt realise that it was a game, and not a fair one, maybe your mistake was not playing the same game with the same rules,,maybe you should just get the time machine and try to change the past, but unfourtunately you cant do it,,but "maybe" is a word for loosers as is indecision and games, and you are a succesfull guy with such a strong personality and lots of goals to reach."
another freind told me : " Do not do what you did for me, please fight for her and remind her good times and show you sensitive area which u have and its very awesome....please dont let her go, or you will regret later....tell her eerything you have been thinking lately, and all this please fight as you fight for your profesional goals..........." the big question is..should I?

PS. Last days I understood why God gave me so many good things in my life last years, and also why I passed all my steps, without even desrving them, it was because there is always lot of people praying for me, and that is why god listen to them ( not me because I'm an asshole) and I need to thank those people.....

tc guys, life goes on.......

Sri Tigerji.

one week later....

well guys I applied last week, to my programs for the IM match, and so far I have already 4 interview invtitations which is really cool, but I also feel that I need some more to stay in the safe area...maybe around 15 is a good number :).
but let's see what destiny will bring later on this month..... I hope god gives me some more help AGAIN!!!! actualy he has already done a lot for me , and I guess I owe him my entire soul,....

I havent been able to start my step3 preparation yet, because I cant focus on real study due to the match process , I keep opening my email inbox every 30 mins but I MUST start serious study this week, and hopefully take my step 3 mid november.... I m so lonely , no study partner , so boring , no suppor for this step,,,but I hope I can pass it too...

well finally I ll be travelling to the USA in november, and this time I have no partner to travel with so far, so I guess I ll feel so lonely during all this trips, interviews, and also in the middle of the winter....but that is one more sacrifice I have to make, although I ve already asked someone to join me..let's see if she is free for me ...or she has already some other plans.... ( I need you to iron my suites , not wrincked this time, lol) .......

I also applied for spanish residency test, and will have to travel to spain in january....but I have some of my friends there , so I ll feel like being at home.... I couldnt just leave all my luck to the USMLE match, since its very competitive, that is why I had to apply for my backup plan, spanish medical residency,...and hopefully I ll start residency next year,.,I cant wait to start and practice medicine......

these days I ve been thinking deeply about my future, and my personal life;..and Ive been just remembering some talk I had in the past, some phrases I said, and someone told me too, and also so promises I made in the past.... but I ll make all those things to become true, I dont know what destiny has for me in the future, but I ll fight for the american dream, not only for you..but for me... I guess after the last time I saw you, we were expecting for this trip, but it seems things have changed , so have ur feelings.....and I d understand.... and wouldnt blame at you....distance and time are always harmfull for feelings...and it seems you are not expecting this trip anymore......but just wanted to let you know,,,I'm happy for you...and I guess now I m happy for me, because you always encoraged me to keep trying this USMLE dream, and although I d like you to be with me until the match and later also(.as we dreamed in the past), but I m also mature enough to undertand things...and if I match I ll always rember that you always encouraged me..and made me try harder!!!!!
thank you dude...and at least get online more often to say hi! and keep me updated about your life..because I feel that I dont know any news from you, and also I can help you whenever u need me,,,, never forget that .....

well guys thanks for your support and I guess I m in the beginning of the end, and hopefully I can sucess and match this year,,
tk guys,,,
see you soon

Sri Tigerji

I dont dance " cumbia songs"

when I asked this lady to dance, she repplied " I dont dance "cumbia", but look at her, arent we having fun with "cumbia"?

fun weekend

well guys after my test score I had to go for some fun, I enjoyed the weekend, this a pic that show some of it. do I look happy???? or hot?????, what about her??? lol

RE-loaded

well guys finally, I got my step 2 score, it's a pretty good one, and also I got 2 more letters of recommendation for my application, and it made me think about this year match, so I m still going for it, I applied to some hosp and still waiting to apply for some more, life is good now,
I'm so happy and now studying hard for step 3 , maybe destiny still wants me to go to america, and let the american dream become true, let's see what happens later,.....
and I want to thank a special friend that helped me a lot these last days, someone I just met for a coupple of weeks, but had already done so much for me, and was also with me during this time, you know I m talking about you dude, thanks a lot, and I still owe you dinner, and you owe me the buffet, so we ll meet soon, maybe in the US, or in PERU..... and please study hard, you are so damm smart and helped me a lot, so I guess you deserve some words in my blog too..
take care.
:)
thanks everyone....even if I dont write too often I feel I have some support always from people who read this blog...thanks for your prayers ...
love you guys

TImes are changing!

These last days were very important in my life, I had to take some decisions which I do not regret since I Was prepared for some consequences about them, I cant blame myself since it was the best....
LIfe has been really hard for me, first my USMLE application is not ready, I applied to only one program and have very low chances to match this year, and still a lot of work to do to see if there is any other program that I may apply to, but time is almost up, so I may be ending applying to only one program and almost impossible to match this year, I cant blame at anyone, everything is my responsibility, but sometimes we need some help, and suddenly we realise that the person who we thought was helping us no matter what, this person just doesnt help us, and then we are left alone, and that hurts more, but anyway that is about life, maybe I shouldnt have never counted on that person..cant blame that person either ..but anyway there is also a backup plan and life goes on.... but I believe god will judge everyone of us for our acts....and also this world is round, and somethings may turn around so fast.....

Love is a constellation of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection or profound oneness, but sometimes we just dont understand what the other person mean by love, and when we realise that we dont play the same game, we get so disappointed about it, tha we didnt see things that were so clear , but luckily there is always good people that make us see those things we couldnt see, and realise that love had made us blind... but its never too late to change things, and also it is never too late to realise that the game is over....although it hurts to know that I almost left everything, that I trusted in love again after a long time , but again got hurt a lot...but ..that is about life, .... I hope next time I dont make the same mistake and I wont be a fool again, I dont think I wasted time, because I felt good, and also was decided to do some crazy thngs thag luckily I didnt do yet,... otherwise I d have regreted that for my entire life. I m young and strong enough to restart my life, and I m pretty sure this new life for me is gonna be better, and now time for me to be " THe selfish One". I dont regret for anything I did, because I was always transparent enough, and never cheated, and I did have real feelings without any secondary gain,... but now the game is over... maybe in the worst moment of my life, when I really needed someone to be with me, helping me , since I have a long way for medical residency...but yeah....that only confirm that it wasnt love....sometimes we say LOVE without even meaning it....but the problem is that not everyone plays that game...

anyway, I should start again, get stronger, and now I can see who I can really count on..and just try not to dissapoint those people, since they are the ones who are not only in god times, but also in the worse moments too..... I may also put more money and effort for the spanish dream, since it seems there is no more reason for me to go to america, and also because I have very few possibilities, it was a pleasure to write for you guys my american dream, but now I have to study hard, test in spain is next jan and I should get a spot there..

thanks for your prayers, and now lets work on the spanish dream :)

see you guys!

Gambling time

HEllo guys Its me again, well finally the match season started, last weekend I Was trying to decide whether I should apply with my bad credentilas or to wait until ck score and some more letters of recommendation, and after a good analisis I realised that my best choice is to apply , so I did apply to only one program in Illinois, the only one I met the requirements, although I have a list of 6 more programs that I d meet requirements depending on my ck score , so for now I m hands tied, and I only pray that this program I applied to , like me and offer me an interview. I also realisded I really need a back up, so finally I m done with all my paperwork for spain medical residency, so I ll be applying next january there.
This is a very important moment for my future plans so I hope god helps me a lot to get a spot in a good place...
Thanks for your prayers too guys I really need them
Good luck.

finally I took the test

hello guys I took my CK some days ago, it was a really bad experience,, I couldnt sleep the night before my test, so I got only 2 2-hour sleep the night before( = 4 hours)
so the day of my test I arrived early, and lucky I was the only one taking a test that day so no noise at all, but unfoutunately the earth was still shaking( after the severe earthwake in peru) , so I got my screen shaking maybe 3 times during my whole test ..
anywa by the end of the second block I was totally tired I coudlnt do it anymore, I couldnt concentrate anymore so basically I picked random answers :( ...by the end of the day I just wanted to sleep , I was so tired and I didnt even remember how I performed during the test since I barely had energies for my brain..
so now I just pray to god for my score, and I hope he helps one more time...
my score will arrive in some weeks and I ll post my score when it arrives
thanks for your prayers..
tk

Tomorrow is the big day

well guys I just want you to pray for people who lost everything in last earthquake in Peru , and also for my test which is taking place tomorrow:)
thanks for your support and I ll be back tomorrow to post my experience.
take care
bye

Earthquakes!!!!!

I Was studying for my ck last wednesday when suddenly I felt my desk and PC were shaking but I was so focoused on my studies that I barely noticed it , so I didn't care about it that much but then it got stronger and the whole roof and all windows started to move so violently that I got little bit scared , after that I heard my parents going out of my house and people outside were crying and screaming, so I decided it was time for me to leave my studies just in case it became worse.. and I got outside of my house and all my neighbors where outside desperated, kids were so terrified, dogs were barking, everyone was trying to hide into a safe place but unfourtunately there was no SAFE place at that time, the whole soil was shaking, even cars were shaking and suddenly ,all lights shut off....but came back few seconds later... and the sky was shinning even though it was night time
By that time I saw so many people praying to god, some of them talking to others by first time, some of them thought it was the end of the world ..so I looked at the dar sky and asked to myself..am I ready to stand before god at this point? and I got a quick answer..NO WAY.....something inside me was sure it was not the end of the world, but after about 2-3 mins the earthquake stopped, and nobody wanted to get into their houses again , they were scared, and remained outside for like 15 more mins just to make sure it had stopped.

So I got inside my place again talked to my parents , and we tried to call my brother and sister but network was not working so we tried harder and after 15 mins we talked to them and everyone was safe, so then I turned on my PC, tried to get news about the earthquake, it was a 8.0 earthuaque in the scale of ritcher.. I was wondering where was the maximun damage at...so I googled and got to some web from the US that said it was south of lima, about 150 miles..and I got quite scared because I was born about 150 miles south of Lima, so I read the web and damm it...the MAIN CITY WAS the place where I WAS BORN, and that is a poor-old city so I told my parents about it, they started to call there but network was not workingg after 15 mins we talked to my cousin,,,she was screaming and said " the walls are down, the roofs are down, houses are still coming down, everything is down, lots of people couldnt make out of the house,,,and said uncle I have to go.....my house is falling down too..."

we got really scared and after that we got some more info ..my city was almost gone. more than 70 % of the houses were gone in some areas,, lot of death people on the roads and houses, people were sleeping on the streets, or parks, but the earth was still shaking .... after that the president of peru traveled there and tried to help them...

today its friday , help is arriving, but I feel so sad ...I wanted to go and help my relatives , but I cant because my damm test is next tuesday...but I made a promise to myself ..after my test I m going ..and see how my city is now..after all these earthquakes ...I ll always remember my city as a beautifull place even though it was a poor city, they had the best food ever, so friendly people ...good weather, and specially the place I was born and I spent the first years of my life when I didnt know I d become a doctor and try hard for the american dream....and I Was feeling so weak last week, that I even thought about reescheduling my test again, but then I realised that now I have one more reason to fight for .... but will always have that place called chincha in my heart.....

thank you guys ..please this time I dont ask you to pray for me..but for chincha and those people who have no place to live at .....pray for them.... because God is the only one who can help them
good luck....god bless peru!

freacked out

Hello guys I just freacked out and postponed my test...yeah but only one more day,.so now pray for august 21st...that is the D day,,and hopefully after that I ll start working on my application process....I feel so exited about this things..since its like ...after one year finally I m starting the end of this long process
please pray for me
tk guysss
dont forget HOUSE M.D comes back in september

Time for the right decisions

Hellooooooooooo it's been a while since last time I typed something here, I kind of miss it but unfourtunately I didnt have that much time, but I m here again ..reloaded but kind of nervous, july is the most stressfull month of this year... It was my country's independece day about 2 days ago, and I went out and saw everyone so happy about my country, drinking, dancing, yelling, having fun here...and that made me remember that if I get a spont in USA next year, I wont be here to spend that wonderfull time....

Anyway , this month I have to take my CK test, which may be in between August 14th and 18th, I m nervous again, every test is a different story, a different experience, a different feeling.. I hope God doesn't forget about me and gives me a hand again.... but also its the time when I have to send all my documents because Interview season starts early september and I may be going back to USA again, but this time to interview, and hopefully the end of this hard pathway I started last year....

I just want to thank again to the people who are helping me and also to the ones that are praying for me....

well I gotta go back to study...it sucks....but I love it :)
have a nice day..
bye

"The american dream is still intact"

well guys I'm back here again, writting in this post. I thought I was done with the american dream, but God wants me to puss harder on it, I PASSED my STEP 2 CS, I was so nervous because I had made lots of mistakes, because my test experience was really horrible, with lots of silly errors, and so much anxiety that I was almost sure I was going to fail, I was even working harder on my Spain plan, but now things have changed I'm back to the american dream, the one I started once upong a time, when I was young, and I could run and play soccer, when a child was dreaming of becoming a doctor and doing his residency in USA, that dream is still intact. wheather its fair or not, I don't know; but I know for sure I ll try harder for my next test and I ll try to go for this dream I started last year.
I want to thank everyone of you who helped me a lot, gaining my confidence, with some prayers, with some words, and also so much support I got from my friends.....
It has been such a nice week, I remember 2 weeks before the result day I was so anxious about it that I barely could slpeep. I started to wake up in the middle of the night, after only 2 hours of sleep, and couldn't sleep anymore, I had this guilty feeling about my test..and the day I got my result I was on the PC until late but I didnt get the results and I was so pissed off because I thought I had failed. but the woke up one day in the morning checked on the web..and it had the most beautifull red letters saying I had already passed the test...I was so relieved it was early mornig so I waited for my partents to wake up and told them the news..they got really happy ..even happier than me..and then I realised why I passed ....it was due to my parents prayers and all their support....they didnt take the test but they were always sure I was passing and they supported me everytime.... I owe them so much I hope I can pay them back someday...
well that is all for today..by the way take care guys..keep praying for me..and watch the American soccer cup...and cheers for Peru please
good luck guys... I m back.

Aquellas epocas!

Lindo video! , me hace recordar una linda etapa de mi vida.

decision time!

well guys this have been such a hard week for me, I had lots of problems ...lots of thins to think about...so many doubts..so many dreams..so many options...but very few decisions....
but I just wanted to tell you my very big decision... I just gave up about THE AMERICAN DREAM..yeah I quit...no more english medical reading...
I dont have good english, I dont look like american, so many culture differences... I was trying to imagine...me in the ER having a patient with a medical emergency..how stupid should I look and sound...with my poor english..maybe I dont even understand him... or me trying to tell a patient there is some problem with his voice..when I cant even pronounce voice correctly.....
or how can I handle all the money to apply for the american dream..
I wasted one year of my life trying the american dream...now I m 1 year older...and didnt do anything..just wasted time..so now I ll work in my country..and also started my paperwor for spain medical residency,,so maybe next post you ll have to read in spanish
well just wanted to thank everyone...for the support during this year ...and I hope the best for you guys.. I hope I never dissapointed you guys....
so....nos vemos chicos..un abrazo desde el invierno de lima,"

Top 10 Signs of Studying Too Long

Top 10 Signs of Studying Too Long

1. You get excited about switching pen colors.
2. Your roommate comes home from a weekend away and says, “Surprise, you’re still sitting there! Have you changed clothes at least?”
3. Your mom calls and after talking for a few minutes says, “I’ll call back tomorrow and maybe you’ll be in a better mood.”
4. Unless you turn off your internet connection, you check email/cnn/gossip site/website of choice every 5 minutes.
5. It’s summer and 85 degrees outside but your bathing suit is still in winter hibernation.
6. Your middle finger starts to get that weird indentation on it from writing too much.
7. You can tell what time it is by hearing the squeaky school bus brakes outside the window (7:40am and 3:35pm).
8. Every single coffee mug is dirty in the dishwasher.
9. Your apartment is either really clean (because study break = manic tidying session) or looks like a tornado ran through it.
10. You sit still so long that reading about decubitus ulcers and DVTs becomes a little more relevant

BOnus track

* U have named your computer & have conversations with it.
* U dont understand Y everyone doesnt do ALL their shopping on-line.....(( I even order my groceries...so I dont have to waste time driving .....))
* your kitchen is now your office...because it took too long to walk to and from the kitchen to the office where it was....
* your house has started to resemble those seen in those studies on people who are recluse....i.e. piles of studies...piles of journals...open/ closed/ torn out pages.....piles of pizza boxes....
* your neighbors have stopped coming by because "we never know if you are sleeping, writing, studying......."
* U spend time writing posting responses in an effort to cry out to the world for contact!!!

waiting for a while!!!

Well it's me again, after a long time writting here again, waiting for my CS score..sometimes I just remember too many mistakes that I guess I 'd fail..but sometimes I feel so confident about some good things I did during my preparation and test....and feel quite relaxed....but I have 20 more days to wait for my result...wheather I pass or not ..is not in my hands anymore , I did my best but now its all in the USMLE hands...
well life is good now..just studying for my CK test, which depends on my CS results...and I hope I can pass it so I can handle my application process without time pressure
besides that ...my favorite Tv show "house M.D" just finished and I have to wait until september to watch the 4th season...that sucks..lol
anyway guys please pray for me..and my CS result..
take care ..and keep reading this blog..
tk

My worst nightmare

Hello guys..well I took my test last week and it was the worst experience ever..first I had practiced quite a few cases so that is my big mistake..but I had managed to finish every case on time..s..but as soon as I started the real test...I freacked out ..was so nervous.. I could barely speak..and my voice was really low...started to sweat a lot..and screw the first 2 cases..then I got 8 cases that I may pass ( not for sure...but there is a possibility), and after that I got 2 really hard cases where I didnt know what was wrong with those 2 people ...and also a coupple of people asked me to repeat the qts again..and I run out of time in almost all the cases...and I also forgot to drape a coupple of cases...didnt counsle in some cases due to lack of time.....
I was supposed to spend a really fun weekend..but I couldnt..cose I was so worried after my test..I guess I ll fail...but I cant do anything at this point...I only have to wait for my score ..so I have 2 more months to have more nightmares and flashbacks about my test...
now I m still in US..but this week I ll travel back to peru...and again...try to restart again.....
I cant sleep ...and cant focus in my studies for step 2 ck.....I hope god doesnt forget about me ...and helps me..
well dudes..please keep me in your prayers..and take care...
see you around

friday is the day

hello guys I just want to tell you this friday april, 20th I ll have my step 2 cs so please keep me in your prayers.. because I ll need them.
I m still in USA, during these days I m in michigan just practicing my english and some cases for my test , but next week I ll be home again... I miss it so much ...anyway ...have to go back to study..
dont forget to keep me in your prayers.

michigan agaiin?????

Finally I m here againg in Michigan, where I started to dream about 'the american dream
'... I remember when I arrived for 1st time to MI ..it was january 2004, some snow said " welcome to america" I had never seen that much snow in my life before...It was my first day when I went to a hospital for an elective rotation at the internal medicine dpt...and it was about 4 o clock in the morning ,and I woke up..took a shower..walked about a mile to get to the bus stop..at 5 o clock in te morning..it was dark outside..with the snow covering all the sidewalk..my shoes were stucked in the snow..finally I got the bus stop..so freezing..so worried about it..but when I got on the bus I realised it was not an easy pathway..I was wondering ..is this what I want..? is this worth? should I come to america...? ..too many questions..and few answers..but anyway...I arrived to the hospital..met really nice doctors there...and compared the differences between medicine there and in my country....and when I was in the hospital..I realised ,,,I wanted to do it...
not its april 2007..;; I m older..I m not that young guy that used to have energy 24/7, roght now ..watching trought the windows of a nice cancer center in MI.. I see all the snow covering the buildings...how depressant it is..but I feel..those things I felt 3 years ago.that weird sensationg inside my body..just running troughout...like when I first arrived here..but now ...I m older..and also ...in the middle of my american dream...
if this is a good decision or not..only gods know..but somebody told me a coupple of days ago..that ..AMerica loves me...but to be honest...I d like God loving me.....and if he wanted me to change my test from LA to chicago..and make a stop here in michigan.. .there should be a reason for it...maybe to regain some confindence...or maybe meet some old friends...or maybe to freeze my body before a test and calm down my nerves.....I still dont know why ...but I m really sure there is a reason for my stay here..and when I know it..I ll share it with you...
so I hope you dont get bored with this dork story ..but I was in the mood of writting this thing..
please keep me in your prayers..test day is april 20th.
take care folks.e

the D day is close

well I m now in The USA, lots of miles far away from home, but I had to do this for this test..somethimes it seems to be a good decision but sometimes it doesnt...
anyway they D day is april 20th, in chicago, IL.
so please guys pray for me, because I ll need it...

the D day is close

well I m now in The USA, lots of miles far away from home, but I had to do this for this test..somethimes it seems to be a good decision but sometimes it doesnt...
anyway they D day is april 20th, in chicago, IL.
so please guys pray for me, because I ll need it...

he aprendido!!!

He aprendido que siempre debo despedirme de las personas que amo con palabras amorosas; podria ser la ultima vez que los veo.
He aprendido que hay muchas maneras de enamorarse y permanecer enamorado.
He aprendido que puede requerir siglos para construir la confianza y unicamente segundos para destruirla.
He aprendido que no debo compararme con lo mejor de lo que hacen los demas, sino con lo mejor que puedo hacer yo.
He aprendido que puedo llegar mucho mas lejos de lo que pense posible.
He aprendido que soy responsable de lo que hago,cualquiera que sea el sentimiento que tenga. He aprendido que por tan apasionada que sea la relacion en un principio, la pasion se desvanece y algo mas debe tomar su lugar.
He aprendido que la verdadera amistad y el verdadero amor continua creciendo a pesar de las distancias.
He aprendido que dos personas pueden mirar a la misma cosa y ver algo totalmente diferente.

Author : La tigrecita...

Maybe
You stand there, so cold, so unfeeling.
Where is my friend?Where is the thread that united us?
Why do you hurt me with lies and untruths.
What have I done?
A woman, with a gentle touch
With a lover's voice
whispered to me
asked me to wait
told me he'd come to me
to be with
me
It was "right".
I waited.
I trusted.
I believed.
But now in the lover,
once so close as friend
I see no trace of the woman I cared for…
shared with..
loved.
Maybe one day I'll understand.
Understand why, once it's over,
the need continues to cause pain.
To hurt me.
To cause me humiliation.
Maybe one day I'll understand where my friend went.
Why I can't see her anymore.
Why she went away.
Maybe…

trip coming soon

well I m not sure how many people reads this space, but just wanted to share with you that I ll be travelling to the USA in about 2-3 weeks , my test is early april and again I ll need your prayers since this is a really hard test for me..specially the speaking part which is in english and I m afraid my english is not that good at it.. anyway lofe goes on and I keep trying this long pathway which I hope takes me to heaven....

now ...the usmle step 2ck + cs

well guys I got my step 1 score..I passed to it means ..step 1 is over...
now studying for step 2ck and cs...this pathway is not far....its doable and I m trying it ...to the end.................
well thanks for encouraging me ....
good luck and I ll be here posting again trough my painfull pathway ....when its gonna be over??? hopefully sept this year..
well gotta go to study
by the way there were some people who didnt belive I d pass...so I passed ...and that is a present for you.............
take care
bye